Day 10 post-myomectomy

May 1, 2022

Day 10 post-myomectomy recovery💛 thank you to the very many beautiful souls who sent over prayers, love, food, texts, and energy for a safe surgery - I was so well protected! I couldn’t have made it through without you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Woke up from anesthesia and told my surgeon I loved him lol. I had a really wonderful team.

They got the biggest fibroid out (4 separate fibroids which fused together into 1 very large one…the mass they took out accumulated to ~9.3cm x 8 x 3), which I’d say is a great outcome as this was a very complex one due to its particular location. Unfortunately, they made the conservative decision to leave the other 4-5 submucosal fibroids in as removing them would totally destroy my endometrial lining. As preserving fertility was a top priority, this is what my team decided - I’m grateful.

They also found tissue consistent with Adenomyosis, which further explains why my fibroids looked so different in my ultrasounds and MRI (squishy cells, making my fibroids not clearly defined) - and what also contributed to the heavy + painful menses. Not a great thing to have on top of fibroids, but I’m grateful my team was able to remove the tissue they found at the time of my surgery.

At my follow up appt, my surgeon asked when I’d like to have kids. I responded with: as soon as I can. It’s no secret - I knew I wanted to have children, and raise them, and love them even before I was 7yrs old. With the fibroids left in my womb, this makes pregnancy planning more difficult.

Although the path to mother is unclear, I know I’ll be a mom so I’m not really worried about that. The consciousness of Mother arrived to me very clearly ~2 years ago…and has been integrated into my being and knowing. But surrendering to the “how” I become mother feels hard right now as so many options are up to perhaps both science and magic.

Then I asked my surgeon if he thought my heavy bleeding might be improved. He wisely responded with: yes, no, and maybe. And you know what, I completely understand. So we wait.

My mighty and precious womb asks: do you still love me?

Me: I do.

Divine asks me: do you still trust me/you?

Me: I do.

And so it is. ✨💎🌊